If you are reading this, not as a individual who has faced these thoughts or who has maybe even attempted suicide, just remember that sometimes the most beautiful people you meet in the world, sometimes the kindest people, the one’s who smile the brightest, are the ones who fight the toughest battles in the dark hours of the night.
You wake up every morning, roll out of bed and dread going anywhere or doing anything.
You look in the mirror, and try your hardest to recognize someone who you don’t even know anymore.
You used to be so full of life and so happy. You had all of these dreams and goals, but now you barely know who you are or if anything is worth it anymore.
Your dreams are slowly fading away. You don’t know if you can even make it through the rest of the day, and the thought of tomorrow is just terrifying.
You spend time crying on the bathroom floor, praying that maybe something will accidentally happen to you so you don’t have to take matters into your own hands.
Sometimes your anxiety causes you to feel so trapped and overwhelmed. All of your thoughts of death are a fantasy of escape.
Whether you are struggling with anxiety, depression, being bi-polar, or any other mental illness, you are not alone.
There are people in this world who maybe don’t have a mental illness but yet have still felt the way you do at one point in their lives.
You do not have to have an “illness” to feel defeated or worthless. You don’t have to of had something drastic happen in your life to feel depressed or unhappy.
Everyone, no matter who they are, has thought about giving up. Has thought about what their friends and families lives would be like without them here.
And I can bet that everyone, no matter who they are, has been affected or is close to someone affected by suicide.
It is very hard to remember, but your presence in the world does matter.
And I know that it is hard to believe, but there are people out there who do care.
Help is out there. Help is willing to walk you through this battle. And once you have won, you can be that help for someone else. You can share your story and help others win their battles. To me, that’s powerful.
I know you may feel alone, but you aren’t. We’re all in this crazy thing called life together.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 (Online chat also avaliable)
Text ‘HOME’ to 741-741 to text with a trained crisis counselor (24/7)
The Trevor Project: 866-488-7386 (Deals specifically with LGBTQ+ community – Online chat and text are also avaliable)
Hopeline: 1-877-235-4525 (Call or text available)